Eating away at my soul…..
Why are memories trapped inside our head?
Why can’t we just erase or forget the hurt?
I keep playing the scene over and over in my head…. I can’t cry or slit my wrists, it wouldn’t amount to the emotional pain i endure every time i close my eyes…
How do moments just take over us? or consume us? how do we break away from what breaks us? How can I take every “I’m sorry” you have ever said and build a time machine that would help unbreak my heart?
Its not what you did, its what everybody saw you do to me. It’s how every time I appear in public i have to fake a smile and pretend that everything they witnessed was dead and gone….
Some days are better than others….
Some days alcohol is better than others.
Some days I wish that God had given me the power to forget rather than to forgive…
How long before it breaks me, takes over me, condemns me.
How will i live when my soul is dead?.